I did something bad today..

I read his SMS without his acknowledge.

Was it an impulse? No.

I know it was wrong to do it but i couldn't help myself.

Curious? Maybe.

Bascially, i am insecure.

Really insecure.

Things have been happening this past few days.

I was thrown and torn apart again and again.

I felt my heart crumpled as harsh words being made.

I was totally beaten.. eaten up by the ugly words.

I believed in them. I was convinced that i am that lousy...

I know that i can be unreasonable at times.

So what?

At least i admit to my wrong doings and try to make amendments.

I try to learn from mistake.. but who doesn't lapse back and make foolish mistake again?

Am i making one now?

Should i let him go?

For the reason being i love him so much so that i am willing to give up just for him.

I know he does love me... without any doubts... because i trust him.. his words.

Relationship is turning sour. It seems to be a vicious cycle of break and patch.

What should i do?

I am so tired to think anymore.

I need a rest..