Have been thinking a lot lately..

New job, new environment, new colleagues.

Trying to adjust to everything.

All new changes and people ard me.

Dunno whether i know what is right and wrong anymore. Just doin what the moment feels right.

I guess life for me now is just work.

Not much of a choice.
I start to feel better.
I learn from mistake and try not to make the same mistake again.
Yet, i believe people make mistakes all the time. Realisation and falling back to the old self again.
I want to break through. I want to break free.
I dun wish much. I just wanna be happy. Yet, admist all that smiling i have on my face. Sadness welled up inside me. It just can't seem to stop bothering me. I know i am weak, at times. I ALSO WANNA BE STRONG. i WANT TO SHOW EVERYONE THAT I CAN DO IT TOO.

After thinking for so long, feeling uncertain and tormented. I guess I will never give up loving him. It's so strange. But it's true. It doesn't matter how he feels. But I believe i will feel better this way. No point forcing yourself to do something u can never acomplished right? So, I will let him fly like a kite, be carefree. This is the way i shall love him forever...