Well, there's a quote- 'It is by chance we met, by choice we became friends.' Yes, and choice are make by us-human being. I have made my choice clear. But it seems to me that my friend has chosen to forgo.

I'm depressed, knowing that she is not in a good state makes me even worst. I really wish i could do something. But all i could was nothing. Seeing and feeling her agony breaks my heart. U know how much u mean to me.. But does she really knows? Does she wants to open up and let herself know. Not exactly. I may have many friends, but still those who have stand by me and been thru my ups and downs are the ones that i most treasured. Maybe i have neglected u. Maybe i have not shown you enough love that i should have. I am truly disappointed with myself causing you so much hurt and depress.

I'm torned and hurted too. My vision starts to blur. My tears are welling up. there is this aching, throbing pain in my heart. As if my heart was to be broken into pieces. I have not had this feeling for a long time after my last relationship. It's tormenting me as her words continue lingering in my mind. ARGH~

I could like the rest, don't bother. But i have nv done so in my life. I try hard. I do.. maybe not as much as u thought i could but i did. (Sobbing.. )

My jap exam may not pass.. tml will know result.

My mood: TrasheD and tIred.

To my precious Jo:
'To mean something to somebody is one of the greatest satisfactions in life.'
Validivar

U mean so much to me.. pls take care.