Okok... i know i know.. i did say that i will not blog till after exam but my hands are itching and i can't wait to ventilate my feelings.. or should i say i have no one to listen to me?

I just woke up and guess what, my handphone went out on me.. It just doesn't want to on. I am so bloody pissed. I shouldn't have charged it yesterday then. Haizz.. now i have to go back to my old hp which has such difficult keypad to punch in the numbers so i guess i can't sms anyone too.. unless they are willing to wait for a "yes" in 15mins time. Which then probably leave me with no choice... maybe i should not bring a mobile out then.. haha.. how can i survived!!!

Sms him. But seems to me that he sound unhappy.. like he said.. he don't feel good.. he doesn't want to talk to me. But i am Not feeling good either. whenever i think of the way he is treating me now, i can't help myself but heartache. i really try very hard not to think so much.. to comfort myself that everything will be fine. I really want this relationship to work for us, but i can't do it all alone.

I guess i have fallen too deep till i can't let go. I wish he know how much he means to me. And just let by gones be by gones. I want us to be happy, not like this.. i really want to do something to make this better.. but i couldn't. Thats why i am feeling helpless and useless.