Okie... me in bad mood.. Only JEn knows why.. maybe most of u all knows why.. Because who else can make me upset and angry other than him.

Well, it has been so long long time since i last came here to let off some steam..

Maybe I will never be able to accept the fact that She will always be there.. And He will always be her friend.

Maybe i shouldn't give a damn to HIm anymore.. It just hurts when he can't be bothered to understand the insecurity i am feeling. Why should i put an effort to refuse people who like me and hurt them?? I dun see myself taking photo with them leaving in my HP?? What's the point?? IS it really necessary??

I think i cannot afford to trust another guy to make me go into relationship.. When i try to put in the first step.. things ALWAYS happen... Noone can understand how difficult life can be when u try but the nest time u know is u have fallen in deep shit.

Fuck You..

Just leave me alone...

I want to be loved but not in this way...

If u love me.. please try to understand. If not.. just fuck off.. I dun need u to upset my life.. I know i can live without u. So what if i make an impact of ur life?? U did too.. by breaking my heart many times.. Do u wan to end up like CM and YL?? MAybe then u will truly understand the importance of that special someone giving u another chance again. Do u really know ur mistake and trying to do ur best?? HAve u try to make to adjustment?? Have u tried to give me the reassurance??

YEs, i may not be physically attractive. I may not be above average. I DUN have big boobs. But i have my personality and character. Yesh.. i am emotional and childish at times. I dun give in due to my stubborness. I sometimes say things too harsh.. I am not good?? Then find someone else. Maybe someone else can satisfy ur needs and demands. Sorry i can't.

I may close my blog soon.. cos i think no one bothers to read anymore.. And i dun think i can blog regularly. Well, for those who wants me to stay do let me know.. i will decide by the numbers.