WHat a BAd Day...

Remind me of daniel powter.

Anyway, day sucks was kinda affected by my inefficiency.

I was no longer running room but throw back to the counter. And i dun like counter.

Phone calls, appointment, billing...
all sucks.

I hate to track case sheet here. Cos no matter how hard u try. There are always case sheet not found. Case sheet missing. Stolen. Eaten up by dog. or perhaps abducted by aliens. Argh..

driving me nuts.

Argue with mum make things worst.

I thought at leasst coming home makes me relax.. calms me down. but it doesnt seems so.

Flu getting better.. thanks for the the concern.

Regarding Zz.. He's attached.. Happy for him... Was kinda surprised that i didnt cry or make a scene which i normally would have. though i was kinda emotional.

My mum really want me to get myself bonded.. but i REally dun wish to. I wish i was as lucky as Gina. Though now result wasnt annouced.. BUt if i would to get in, i decided that i will not get a bond at all cost. I will work my ass to pay my loans or perhaps get a sugar daddy to pay up my fees. I see no point gettin bonded becos it will tie me down and i perferred to do what i like than to do shift work.

I have been mould to someone whom i dun wish to be. Must i be so obliged becos she's my mum?? Is this filial piety? It's not my wish.. not my passion.. not what i want in life. I want to realise my dreams.. What really make me happy. It's not the stability of a job that will make me happy. YEs, being a nurse is a good job.. helping the society.. caring for others. It's not wat i want though. It can be my temporary hideout. So Please, don't force me anymore. I don't wish to obey it as a command. I don't care if you are going to make me to.. Becos no.. I have chose not to. I will study at my freewill. Not for the sake of you.

Maybe i am never someone who is as noble as u want me to be. But i know that i will work hard for what i want. I am not a slacker. So i will not slack my life away.

Sometimes all i want is to enjoy the light breeze on my face without any worries. But i always have that feeling of pressure. Pressure that i have to excel. Excel to make u feel proud of me. It's stressful... I know you always want the best for me. But i think i'm old enough to know what will be good or best for me. Even if it's not... At least it was i who make the decision. I learnt from failure. I will be independent. Which i believe i can..

Sad sad me...
in frustration.