Perhaps because the weather is cold. It makes my day blue.

I love raining days , not that i hate them or anything. But at times, especially when ur mood aint that good.. the weather just make it worst.

I thought i was strong enough not to let it affect me. but still i'm human afterall. I still feel loneliness and at times helpless. I feel that i so alone to face this big big world out there. No one to turn to, no one to brave the obstacles with me. I really want to find that someone special. But my heart ain't easy to open up anymore, yet inside.. deep inside i longed for someone to share that special connection with me. Someone whom cares.. someone who has the key to my heart. To make me once again trust love, to fall madly in love. irrationally. crazy. sensational. head over heels in love. I would love to have such feelings overwhelming me once again. Will i ever get to experience that sort of emotions once again?

Everyone relate me as bubbly and cheerful.. But am i really that cheerful? I wish to.. perhaps i am when my mood is not so blue. Now all i want to do is wallow in my blanky and hug my cookie to sleep. Blue... BLue cookie monster..