So tired.. third day of attachment, should be in bed now. but was itchy to write an entry. Attachment at Ah has been fun and staff there, are all friendly and willing to teach. Guide my juniors but wasnt too pleased at some of them. too arrogant and over confident. Hopefully they will listen to some advise and learn from their mistake.

Things between ZZ and me still didnt work out quite right. We still have lotsa trust to build and we have distanced a little. He wants to be alone so i guess i shouldnt bother him this period of time. Hopefully things will turn out better for both of us.. i think i need a break too. I was puzzled on one issue he told me abt the friendster , me putting single, i dun understand why he is upset over that. He told me that he actually found out from his friend, however i found him in my waiting list. can u believe it. i dunno whether he actually sign up a account just to check on me or what.. and the strange thing is that how can i put him in my waiting list when i didnt add him at all. I am confused... Why didnt he tell me that he actually sign up a account? Is it because he cant trust me? There are like so many ?? in my head. I will just keep this to myself , i'm not going to bring this up to him. i dun wan another quarrel.. because i believe in what he says. i dun wanna cast doubt on him too as he does on me.

Actually, i'm quite stress with the attachment, stageARTS and my relationship. i know i can just go MIA and heck care all this stuff but since i am determine to do my best, i know i should not give up just like that. i believe when there is a will, there is a way. After what MIscha told me, i know what i should do, to be responsible and do my duty as a VP. It is never too late to try to mend the cracks in the relationship when people give u the chance. Just like my relationship, when ZZ gave me another chance i told myself, this time round i must work hard and let him trust me all over again. No point looking back at the past. what is impt is that we learnt from past mistake, try not to commit the same disaster. MAybe this break would heals our cracks and strengthen each other's love for one another.

This sat was suppose to have a celebration for Gina for her bday. But due to my stageARTS , i cant make it for the suntan thingy so we have to settle for a shopping trip.. but i was kinda disappointed and sorry for the late arrangement. Told Jo that maybe after that can go club.. since we never ever go club b4. But still not confirm, we are both very excited about it. Hopefully we could make it this sat. If not maybe the next weekend or what la.. ( dreamy )