Today wake up at 9 plus. dunno why can't sleep well.. The whole nite i knew myself being toss and turn in bed. Well things are not getting better with me and zz. Yesterday we just quarrelled and sort of settle things a bit. i dunno why i am feeling like this. I really want our relationship to work out eventually. maybe we are too insecure with each other.. always doubting each other. Well, i really dunno.
Today is another horrible day, dunno what to do.. Km ask me to go out to tour spore on bus.. but i rejected the idea.. found myself motion sick these few days. so i guesss it is another boring afternoon then. i really wanna go out do some shopping , eat something better.. but.. I AM BROKE! haiz, what can i say.. just a terrible holiday!

Well.. today i went to Soka mtg in the morning. But as usual .. i was late! haha.. then we actually went down to chinatown for tea at a traditional tea house. However.. i had already made arrangement with ZZ, so didn't get to drink tea with them.. hmm

After mtg up.. we went to watch shrek 2 at cineleisure.. it was a funny and nice show..ZZ and me laugh at all the stupid things the creatures did.. haha..( rem that pinochio wears thong?) Catch the show, have a good laugh~ Well after that we end up walking the streets of orchard road.. but since the both of us are broke, window shopping becums a tedious thing. We ended up with a small arguement.. basically i was the one who wasn't very happy.. ZZ keep asking me why i am so sian.. so i told him because i wasn't happy due to him. Is it that i ask too much? hmm.. Well, after that we just head down to tiong bahru plaza for LJS.

I don't know whether i am very happy in this relationship.. or maybe i don't even need it at all.. Although i do like him.. or fallen for him. but i just can't seems to stop making comparison between him and my ex. i know, i know i shouldn't but i just can't help it.. maybe all it takes is time.. but.. i am just afraid that as time have pass so as my feelings. is this the meaning of selfishness? why, must i have such doubts on my relationship.. maybe i lack confidence as well as courage that things will be better.. maybe...

R.E.G.R.E.T. the only word i can think of.. i can't believe i did that. Now i can't face the world anymore.. SaVE Me!! My beautiful image now has been ruin .. ARRGH!! Now beening replace is a gong gong stupid looking girl. that's ME!!

Why must i cut my fringe, it is so short u can partically see my forehead.. Now can u imagine.. the horror on my face.. when i see myself in the mirror. I think the mirror break in front of me. How can i survive the terrible nightmare for the holidays.. ARRGH!

I guess it is BOREDOM whom have droven me to the extend to play/cut my hair. Now i totally have nothing to say anymore. No matter what My mum say is of no use. i know how ugly i am now.. (Stop putting an act, mum) i know this isn't cute, okie..

Gosh!! it is like so late at night and i am still awake.. i guess it is just the weather and my excitment over this blog thingy.. haha.. well.. still haven't get the hang of it.. cos new bird ma.. but i trying hard to do.. hmm... gambatei!! (^-^)

Well, today went out with kelvin, a friendster friend whom also knew anselm.. who is also a nyp student.. went to eat at far east.. and then a movie at cineleisure. Well, a date with tad hamiliton was a great show... surprisingly.. i mean i thought it was going to be one of those corny comical romance story.. but i feel that it was a totally nice and touching show. Go watch ya??

Got to know Kelvin a little more..First impression he was a Mr nice guy. Easy to talk to, Lame and crappy like me.. however after much chatting, found out that he is actually a sentimental and understanding person. A person with great maturity and goals in life. Well, basically he is a nice friend. Would like to know more about him, he is INTEReSTING!! hahazz

oh man.. finally it is holidayz!! but somehow.. i think it will be one of those holiday where u will be scratching ur head to think of places to go .. even though it probably will be town, bugis and nothing else.. haiz.. recently went to KTV with my friend, grace.. cool man. My frist time .. opps!! but hey.. it was fun.. we manage to get a package and sang a total of 2 hours.. haha.. it was crazy.. two siao zha bo singing like mad in one small, freezing room that seems like a cell for the prisoner. haha.. well what can i say.. i was so cold that every half an hour, i will be running to to toilet.. damn.. i don't even know where the hell the toilet is.. arrgh! so u can imagine one mad girl running around the place looking for the toilet..