Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are or who you want to become. You never know who these people may be; your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them, you know that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way. And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they may seem horrible, painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential strength will power or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe and comfortable but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet who affect your life and the successes and downfalls you experience, they are the ones who create who you are. Even the bad experiences can be learned from, those lessons are the hardest and probably the most important ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen, let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high.

Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

I need to change my blogskin!! So Sian!!

What a monday... woke up late.. dressed so horribly off to work- in grey skirt and pink top (mind u.. it is pink due to some colour stained) lolx.. Wore this cute black shoes that doesn't even fit in the outfit. It was total disaster. Ha. But lucky me did have to wear blazer so i was save some how or rather from becoming the worst dressed person on the street of orchard rd. LOlx

Well.. the YCF performance is coming.. just this coming sat.. gosh.. 3months past so fast. It was like.. i was still in my permed hair then and now my rebond hair is also not so 'rebonded' anymore. (what's the link?) Anyways, i am really excited. Dunno whether i can do a good job dancing the steps.. cos i still forget steps here and there.. aiyah.. can't help it la.. nervous ma.. ha. Somehow feeling the emptiness coming once the YCf is over. Just like when i was in production and drama rehearsal. I bet i will feel so 'free' that i will be bored to death. So i am starting to plan for activites after my performance.. like taking up Jap cos.. which alan promise me to take part with me with or without Adel.. ahaha.. I also wanna take up driving lesson so i can obtain my license soon.. haha.. seems like Miss BZ is always filled with appt after another. Lolx

Then, for those who dunno.. i am heading to Taiwan in August.. YEah!! Can't wait for holidays! Working sucks. I hate to admit but the only motivation i have is the $$$... Which i will be getting tml and what i am goanna do is to save half and give the rest to mummy.. (Bo pian.. She kept nagging for jia yon.. So there goes my hard earned money. Boo :( ) I feel like shopping but i can't argh!! if not how am i suppose to pay for my air tix. Well, I am so broke that i am only munching on fruits on morning and lunch on biscuit.. I wonder for long can i survive.

There's a secret i am keeping.. I will only announce when the time is right.. so at the meantime.. I just have to keep my cool and hope i dun blurt out anything.. I am so excited!!! ;P

Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Stylish - You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance. Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.

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Nice hair cut? We loving it~

Starry Starry.. We are ur SuperstAr.. whahaha...

Princess GinA and Princess ApriL .. Lolx

CheezE~ The best Sista Ever!

Gosh!! Is that pimples on my face? LOlz

Here's the rest!! Cute?? Happy Bday Junni!!

We are not satisfy with just one sticker.. Here's the second one.. paid fully by Seth.. Woah!!

The waCKO KaKis.. Junni, Moi and Seth.. (Is seth gd looking??)

Hee.. Lovely??

Today met up with my dearie.. Decided to cut hair at far east. Saw her really after a long week of work. She is still as pretty s ever. Think i am going to get really jealous.. he.. nah. We walk ard to seek for the cheapest shop ard .. Ha.. as expected it was the same.. everywhere is prcing at $35 onwards.. so we settle for one that is less crowded.. Wonder why is it so crowded even on weekdays? Hmm.. Anyway, we got our hair cut and wash.. And then .. without wating anymore time.. We head down For a Shopping Spree!! HAhahaa.. So fun~ I bought myself a bag admist all the closing doors.. While Dearie try on clothes after clothes.. haha.. I can see the satisfying smile on her face.. *SATISFIED*-

Promise to show all the sticker right?? Hee... Gee.. I am so lazy to do it.. but ... I still do it.. Just for all of u!! Enjoys^

Hmm.. came back not long ago. From town. Celebrate Junni's bday! haha.. Well, its suppose to be tml.. but what the heck. She probably is spending time with with dar dar terence. HA.

We had a great time today. Fun. Great. Really catch up a lot. The last time was Seth bday. Todae is Junni's. When is mine?? Hmm.. ? Glad she likes her gift. I really whack my brain to find the 'perfect' gift. Phew.. Anywaes.. we ate at cream bistro at Pacific plaza.. great food and the waitress is of gd service. Hm.. price wise. Okie lah.. but i find the boss or supervisor there.. a little weird. maybe gay-ish is a better word? ha

Hmm. moi half chatting with allan boy.. half blogging. Wanna upload the print stickers taken just now.. but i am just so lazy to do so. hmm.. but will do it soon. cant wait to show off to everyone.. My seth wearing his airforce uniform. haha.. he kept saying he look terrible but i find him.. erm.. okie? haha.. i think i was a little crazy just now.. keep on snapping pics in orchard rd. I find myself like someone who just visited Spore for the first time. So excited at everything. Ha.. even Junni join in the fun. ahaha.. we even took pics in the hotel. eccentric? hmm.. thats ME!

Okies.. moi still deciding what to wear tml.. suggestions pls?? ha.. nah.. Allan boy has a pretty gd one.. black top with raw denim.. hor... lolx

Okie... one more day till weekend. Yeah!! Can't help but feeling relief. Maybe it's all that working life thingy plus training and mtg for the OG. Argh.. Somehow feeling suffocated with all that activity. I need a break.. i need some baeuty sleep.. whahaha!!

Thanks gina for the photos.. plus all the encouragement.. I love u.. U have been my confidante for such a long time.. I will be happy..becos i dun wan u to worry for me.. Thanks

Jen.. hehe... she is my antidote.. She brighten every single day of my life becos she cares so much for me.

I really dunno why i have so much gd fortune to have such great friends to stand by me .. I love u all..

Okie... training today sucks.. wearing the cloks to dances was painfula nd difficult.. maybe not use to it?

Hmm.. looking forward to meet up with Junni and Gang.. So excited Junni's bday.. wonder what to get her.. hmmm..

I need to change my internet plan.. cos i have been really broke with this stupid jetpac thingy.. My monthly bill cost up to 80 bucks.. Argh.. It really cut a big hole in my pocket.. so i will need to sign up a plan real soon.. Still deciding.. Hmm...

I start to digress. Do i really know what i have done? Or am i just out of my mind?

I believe only that few actually can feel what i am goin' thru.

State of depression.

I am starting to get depress. Somehow.

Don't feel like eating. Tired.

Isomia.

WTF.

What can i do? Who is there for me?

I am so lost again.

Again.

PMS?? Maybe.

But I am just not the person i used to be.

I need something to spice up my life. I need some bitching ard.

I need to let go.

Let go of everything.

All i need now is some sort of antidote that will stop all this 'bad' negative attitude and feelings.

I feel so so helpless.

Molested. Helpless. What can I do?

Anyway, no body cares. So why should I bother?

I decide to drift away. To stop all contact.

I want to lead a different kind of life. I want to be free of trouble.

Tired.

Really tired.

No one to talk to.

Maybe there isn't really such a thing call close friend.

Where are they when u need them?

I loved him. I still do.

Him?? I dunno.

I wonder too.

Maybe remaining neutral is the best for both of us. Maybe we can start on new relationship without holding on to each other's path when it was never meant to be crossed.

I still can't let go of the past. I still feel the pitch of sourness and hurt whenever I think back of the past. I know I haven't been a goody girl too. I dun deny I am such a lousy gf. A loud, unreasonable, insensitive freaking bitch. I guess thats me.. nothing changes. I am still so lousy.

Haiz.

I am starting to feel numbed. Where's all that passion in me? All the adrenaline?

I have left my heart with him. No doubt. It's there alright.

Maybe I was meant to walk this path alone. Shouldn't dragged anyone with me.

for
Wee tien: Pls stop contacting me thru phone. I believe u can tag me here. I need my space.

Jen: thanks for all the support. But this i have to go thru myself.

Him: The very best is wished for U.

Everyone: No worries. No calling pls. I need time alone. Sms me if anything.

Something i find very useful for the ME now:

Let Go of the Past

Let go...
of guilt; it's okay to make the same mistakes again.

Let go...
of obsessions; they seldom turn out the way you planned.

Let go...
of hate; it's a waste of love.

Let go...
of blaming others; you are responsible for your own destiny.

Let go...
of fantasies; so reality can come true.

Let go...
of self pity; someone else may need you.

Let go...
of wanting; cherish what you have.

Let go...
of fear; it's a waste of faith.

Let go...
of despair, change comes from acceptance and forgiveness.

Let go...
of the past; the future is here- right now.

- Kathleen O'Brien

The ThreeSomE in ActiOn ~~!!

Me and My best bud... elson!

Last grp photo with our dear Frank...

after one of the training.. Sharon, Adeline and Jas...

Party world (sunlight) The crazy Group E..

Group Photo!! everyone so black.. only me the 'bright' one...

The 'suai ga'.. Cute?

It has been a long time since i last blog.. woah.. i actually can feel the time passing really fast while working.. I am going to my 4th week tml. Can't believe how time flies.. Also tml will be my dearie's bday.. Gosh!! It's goanna be the best birthday bash this year man.. especially when it's my girl 21st bday!! Also SGH new staff nurse will start work tml.. whahah.. wonder how all of them will look in their uniform.. Hmm??

Also i have been really busy will my trainings for my YCF performance. Can't believe we are going to perform in less than 3 weeks. Gosh i really hope it will be a success. I become more tan le.. thou some say i still look the same. Well, to think abt it.. tan doesn't mean u look different right?? ha.

Some of my good buddies already went into the army. Wonder how will they look in their 'bo tat' head.. heheheeh... very sexy??

Went to many ktv recently.. one to send Frank away.. other to sing and catch up with my girls... Hmm.. wonder how is shenzheng? How is the temp?? the people? the food?? The Girls?? heehe Hope he will be able to adapt and do well for his attachment. Missing You...

I hope i will not neglect my blog for so long.. Can't let my fans wait for such a long time. I actually have many to say and vent.. but i am really tired.. so let the picture do the talking.. YawN...