okie the photos have to wait.. cos blogger just refuse to let me upload my pics... ARGH...

Surely i am feeling much much better than before. But whenever i try to sing, my voice just cannot make it. haha.. Sucks big big time. Was reading at my friends blog and dearie's, it seems to me that recenty, everyone ain't having a good time. Everyone seems to be down, moody and perhaps tired with certain thing in life.

I managed to off work early or should i say on time today. So boy was i glad to rush home to rest. Practising my keyboard for half an hour. Am trying to perfect the fingering. Well, i think tis is sometime i really have passion for. MUSIC. GUess it's something that will actually bring my mind off from work and stress. In fact, i have been so preoccupied by my class that i'm feeling much much better-emotionally and physically. I never taught i could get over things so fast. I guess time pushing u to learn fast and snap you back to reality. Time wait for no man and soon i will turn 22 and older. haha.. i dun wanna spend my youth on things that were done and over. It's precious so i should do lotsa things to make it more meaningful. Am thinking of taking up voluntary work at SPCA or the old folks' home. Well, guess i have to deicde whether its further studies or work before comitting myself to voluntary work.

I had a lot of friends having their birthday this month. Was busy celebrating with all of them. Guess its time for photos to see for yourself... ;)

Too much of late nights?? I'm still sick. In fact, the doctor said i'm having sinusitis. Argh.. It might be true because my nose is block only on the right side and not on the left. Not only that, my cough drives me nuts too.. Coughing so much that my lower abdominal hurts. Guess it's time to stop all that late night activity of clubbing and drinking.. It's not helping for sure and making things worst.

I think what i really need now is someone to cuddle me to sleep... It's a nice feeling to be cuddle. In fact, it's something that i've longed for. Missed that sort of moment.

I wouldn't want to find someone.. cos i'm tired. And of cos he is still on my mind. I'm wondering if he does feel the same for me.. Maybe he has new target or just can't be bothered with me anymore. But my heart sometimes still long for him. Though maybe we will never meet again. So at the meantime, i will keep my heart for him till that special someone swept me off the ground. Love is so blind.. and i'm hopeless. haha...

I just pray that my body will become better and in the pink of health soon. My nose is very sore for all the sneeze and rubbing. Pray for me too???

My health is at state. I'm feeling really bad though i tried so hard to break all evil thoughts that i will be dead by the time i'm found.

Coughing and flu. The worse combi to be.. i hate it when i have to sneeze and cough together. I have to bring a tissue box whenever i go. Even when i'm blogging at the meantime, my nose is stuck with a tissue. KInda disgusting, but who cares?? At least i feel better without the mucus dripping out of my nostril. :)

In fact, my whole family has the C&F virus. Everyone is coughin.. maybe i am the only one with flu.. and guess what? Even our meals are separated into 3parts so we don't contaminate each other with our virus. This sucks. At work we already use common spoon, now even at home too.

I shouldn't have wish to fall ill. Did u know wishes do come true?? Especially the not-so-good ones. Now i have been sick for almost 3weeks to a month. Will i ever get well. My voice still sucks. Hoarse. I can't KTV... i have been craving for that microphone for weeks yet my voice would probably scare everyone even the ants.!!! What am i to do???

WL said maybe becos i don't have bf now, thats why i'm sick easily. True?? He advised me to find someone to care for me?? Where to find?? Can i go into a pet shop to find? lol.

Gotten medicine from Dearie's dr. Hopefully i will get better... if not my blog will be plagued by sickness.

Now i know where all my money went- the bills for the doc. Sobs.

hmm... mid week. one more day of easy life. Dr coming back on friday and we have to slough to our their life..

Somehow life has been good except for the cough bug that doesn't go away. Damn.

My weekend trip to malaysia was very warming. Saw my grandparents and my cousins. They are just so cute.. I just can't wait to have my own.. lol. Bought some stuff back. mostly deco for the room.

Met new friends.. had a good time knowing them tho some are younger than me.. haha..

I'm very very broke.. save me.

Ladies nite anyone???

Hmm.. what a sunday. Woke up feeling aching all over. Perhaps it's the large amount of walkin and shakin my bom bom yesterday. I had fun... had the clubbing mood for so long but was sick in bed..So boy am i glad i am finally free to hang out till wee hours again.

Too bad dearie never join me.. I miss her so much.. she seems moody so hopefully she will be feelin better soon and i bet she will be goin out and partyin like mad.

Sms him all of a sudden.. perhaps i just couldn't control myself anymore. The torment of missing someone is unbearable.

I should and will have to get a grip on myself. But missing someone isn't wrong right?

Read her blog recently... she found someone new?? then will we be friends again?? I miss her so much. Argh.. so much have happen.. i seems to be standing still ...

Wake up girl~~

For sure, there are lotsa to do.. and i will have to keep up with it..

:) at least i still got YOU.

Finally my com is back to normal.. or should i say back to it's state whereby it's functioning.

Damn was i bored when i was all alone at home, doing practically nothing and my com was down. Even if i wanna bullshit at my blog also cannot.. sian ah..
So there was i, alone and desperate to recover. especially my voice. It's still hoarse btw.. sexy eh? Well, so i had so much time in the world at that moment that i finally sat down on my bed and think about what had happened, reflecting on my life. Gosh... I am so profound at that moment.

Well, i thought alot about the things i wanna do, the dreams i have yet to achieve and basically daydreaming about all the sweet things in life. Haa.. It's weird not able to talk for days. It's even weirder when i start to become serious about my life. Where i wanna head to and stuff like that. PErhaps life ain't just a piece of cake and obviously, u really need lotsa effort and courage to realise whatever u want in life. I guess it's the struggle that toughen ur character. And likewise my relationship.

It's been proven that my BGR can never last. Like those in fairytales, I have always secretly wished that my relationship will be happily ever after. But heck, it has never been. The last current one really shattered my wish. It's really fast and furious. We met, fall in love and boom, it blasted at the end. Haa.. funny eh?? It's not, it took me sometime before i become emotionally stable. I have always put up a strong front. A carefree girl without woes. But deep inside, i'm still human okie. my heart still aches when i'm hurted. If only my heart was made of stone. Perhaps it wouldn't be so painful. So i bear with all that no appetite and crying myself to sleep and stuff and fought thru all.... and here i am a whole new person. Bulls***!! I'm still the same. Same old April. Haiz, i shouldn't be in love at all. It's not worth my effort. I'm really tired with this "heart throbbing", "butterflies in stomach" and blushin' business.

So at the end of it, I miss him like crazy... No doubt i'm still the same April-emotional fool.

I have STM... but why can't i erase the feeling of missing someone? If only i have the recipe to that.