Sunday, August 27, 2006
Dearie and ME~
GUys, What are you doing?!?
Kayaking anyone??
Poor Joe... Disfigured. BY US. ;P
The 007 group... Dun play play...
My voice is still not getting better.. think it will take some time.
I miss my dearie lots.. hope she have lotsa fun in thailand. Buy lots of nice nice clothes and bags.. :)
It's sunday and i'm up early.. what the heck.
It'd been sometime since i upload photos.. so lets enjoy photos.
No mood to blog how pathetic my health state now.. Really want to find someone to take care of me... Sigh. No chance.
This is most shitty..
Guess what? I lost my voice..
Imagine, the talkative, chatty girl unable to do her normal talking.. Argh.. It's crazy.
I cannot help but feels gloomy.. It's like a permanent duct tape on my lips.
I ended my sat night quite early..
firstly-my lost of voice
Secondly-i'm catchin a cold
thirdly- ha,,it's a secret.
Oh well, I've drank my Limsip and hopefully my voice will recover and in a good shape..
All the best to me!!!! Jia you.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Well, i was surprised to see jon sms in the afternoon after my lunch. He actually sms me from brunei to see if i'm okie. What a darling. No worries.. I can't wait to have you back to torture you!! hee hee hee.. :P
I'm like totally hook on the new korea drama series- My name is Kim SamSung. haha.. Not sure of the english title but basically i'm addicted to it. For the 1 fact that the main lead actress really remind me of myself. Sassy and stubborn . Always trying to prove that i'm good in my own ways. Emotional and yet hoping for a fairy-like relationship.It's showing every weeknights 10pm. So you can expect me to stay home everynight @ 10pm. haha.
I'm so broke.. I need to dig out my coins from my coin bank.. Argh.. I haven't been so pathetic for a long time. I need my pay increment.
Saturday- Partying out.. I can't wait!!
Saturday, August 19, 2006
I've finally exchange his gift to something i could use.. Hmm.. no more pretendence. I am not a great pretender. Yes i was emotional and in great depress just the past 3 days.. but with the help and care from all my dear friends.. i'm recovering real fast. =) All thanks to their concern and encouragement.
Oh well, no more sms or morning calls.. have startin to get use to be independent again. Life goes on like he said.. with or without him. True... I'm looking at things on the bright side. In fact, i'm loving the singlehood all over again. :) It's time to party!!!!
waiting for my dear jonathan coming back from Brunei for good... wohoo.. Then the 3some is back in action.. can't wait.
Goin away in Sept for a short holiday.. YEah.. What can i say.. HOliDaeeee...
Weekend but at home.. well, at least i get to spent time with dearie.. Love wrecked anyone??
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Damn depressing.
Fuck me perhaps i may end up in temporary euphoria than feeling this terrble.
The torment of no appetite and stress is driving me nuts.
Is that difficult to find true love anymore?
He seems perfectly fine to me. And me?
U can guess.
I don't want to cry myself to sleep every night.
All i seek is just a shoulder to lean on.. I'm getting tired of all this..
Work.
Colleagues.
Work.
Friends.
Work.
Relationship.
I need a big break. I dun wish to continue my life like this. This is confirm plus chop not a life i want.
I crave badly for a hug.. A hug to soothes my heartache. I really want to cry out loud. REAL loud.
Will anyone out there understand me??
Who doesn't want a good perfecto relationship with less arguement and lots of fun..
But it takes time to understand and adapt to new beginnings..
Maybe i just wasn't ready for any shit yet.
I'm not strong in relationship problem.. HElpless like anything. Argh.
Nothing said can be undone so..
Alcohol is my best friend for now.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Pretence
I am just pretending that i'm fine from the breakup.. If you haven know.. I just broke up with my boyfriend. What can i say.. perhaps the only reason i can come out is we are not suitable and we can't click well? Perhaps i should also tell myself that .. See i told you so.. I'm feeling terrible.
I wasn't ready for anything yet. Which i already told him yet i guess i decide to give it one more try before giving it all up. I totally regretted it.. Why?? Because i felt that i have not healed well enough for anything as yet. Now it just add on just another crack in the broken heart of mine. Who's there to understand me?? Not him.. just because i'm dominating and stubborn.. i'm not understanding. I HAVE NOT BEEN UNDERSTANDING TO HIM AT ALL.
I'm fucked up basically. IS that what they call love?? I hate love then. It's something that i will never want to try anymore. I have totally lost faith in love.. Love failed me too many times. He failed me too. Together till the next world cup.. Fat chance i guess..
Who doesn't know that I want things to be my way?? i love to be dominating. I can't help..but that's me.
The finale??
Bet You know The Answer....
Friday, August 11, 2006
Tirrred.. i looked so shagged.. been over drained by activities these few days.. I NEED plenty of rest. whahaha.. like as if i can take leave anytime i want.
I looked bloated taking photos today.. ARGH! damn shitty looking. I looked as if i gained more than 5kg on my face.. it's round!!!!! Horrified is the only word i can say. Totally unbelievable.
THanks KM for sending me the 4Hgathering pics.. by mail.. oh.. i'm so touched. Ur the best, mate!!
I looked so funny with 3/4 tanned leg till my thigh's area.. they are fair..basically i looked funny la.. ahahaa... haven seen myself with tanned skin for such a long time. BUt my face is always fair.. Betcha haven seen it too.. Anyway, been thinking of taking up new courses again. haha.. maybe vocal?? hmm.. up, up, tai qi tou.. hahaha..
I am dozing in front of the com.. but the dl of the photos are really slow man.. haiz.. my eyes cant hold on anymore.. dark circles showing up.. panda eyes... poor me
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Sentosa outing has never been so fun. let's say with my secondary school friend. We went to try the luge ride and it was fun fun FUN!! Expensive though.
Love the sun. Imagine.. me in the sun.. yup, i got a tan.. quite like the colour.. no burns.. (blessed me) I prayed so hard that i will not have peeling skin in the next few days. Okok.. i have muscle ache.. meaning i have not exercise my arms for awhile. Which i think i really need to... I need to be fit.. Can u imagine, i actually put on 3 kg. Well, everyone say i should put on more.. like 7kg or so..and i will be even more pretty?? lol. what a joke. will any girl wants to put her weight over 5okg>>? U tell me.
My r/s has been bumpy.. not easy i can say... lots of things to learn to accept and adapt. it's been quite sometime.. GUess i'm getting rusty. I need to head down to the national libary to get some self improving or 'how to improve ur loving relationship' book.. lol. I'm such a sad case when it comes to relationship. Perhaps a crappy person like me can'tt commit to seriousness.
Oh well, i wanna meet up and have lots of gathering with my friends.. the next one will be with Junni gang. Yoz girl, don't worry man.. i will spice up ur life.. haha. Let me think of what we can do first...
Fireworks... i managed to get some viewed at jon's car yesterday while jammed at the road to marina square.. beautiful it is. Can't wait to watch it near with dearie this coming tuesday!!! :)
