Silly faces~ Whaha.. cute?

Cheeze!!!

See.. we were so happy singing!!

Best friends forever!!

Pretty women walking down IMH~ haha

The 'Missy'~

Phew.. what a weekend.. it was so bz.. i was like so rushing for time... Finally i get to let down my hair and enjoy myself .. which i did.. haha.. Especially, now is my holidays. YEippi!! Looking forward to shop, play and dine. hahaha... Wow.. i can imagine mehaving dates after dates.. which many had already booked me.. hahahaha.. oki.. this sound a little idiot. But its the truth... Hmm.. but the one whom i hope would ask me out did not.. haizzz...

Very tired now.. did a hair treatment just now for 30 bucks.. not too bad.. find the hair condition not so dry.. but really hope to get it rebonded for easy management .. Boo~ No $$$.... So have to stay with this hair first... till i get more $$

Gina did some shopping and look very satisfied.. haa.. especially her sun glass.. ask her to show off to ya next time ya.. hahaha .. try to notice something unique abt her glasses..

Well.. i guess being on attachment really take my mind off my bgr problem.. Hmm.. thanks for all the well wishes for me.. i am glad to have friends who are there for me. :)

Two weeks of IMH postings have finally ended. It was kinda unforgettable espcially some patients have already bonded with us. even though i was disappointed with the results given by Mdm Chua.. i know that i have learnt a lot more than i expect. :)

I look forward for tomorrow K box session with my best friends. Can't wait! espcially when jo is flying off the next day to Bangkok.. How i wish it was me!! Boo~

I now just have a few things i wanna do in this coming holiday:

1. Wanna get a good massage- back aching man!
2. trim my hair
3. catch a movie
4. Get some rest... my beauty sleep!

Hmm.. i think thats all for now!! Hmm.. better go do my report already... Argh.. stats.. i hate stats!!

Great.. the sky is crying for me... or with me... Thanks for accompany me. U can feel for me too?? U can feel my sadness??My pain.. thats why u are getting heavier?? The clouds are dark.. just like my heart... getting darker and darker.

Finally he left my life.. no longer a part of me..
everything seems so fast.. i was not ready at all.. Felt so frustrated..

I have cried till no more tears left...
my life seems to stop...
I can't seems to move away from this moment.. everything is stagnant.
Sadness overwhelm me.
Frustration linger in my soul.
Everything is blur.. except for that moment of truth, hurt and agony.

Thought i could handle it.. but seems not.
I am not that indestructable after all.
I am that vulnerable.. that weak.
I wish i could just end my life now as it pains my heart to the core.
Stupid idea?? bUT IT CAN END MY SUFFERING.

what can i say.. i am really upset with Him.. why?? why at this moment?? Why must this happen??

I can't even eat my breakfast. I felt so lousy.. i felt like an idiot.

I have work in less than 7hours. YEt, my heart long for a hug.. a comforting shoulder that i can cry on.. not my work.

Tears are my company..

Upset.

Hurt.

Sad.

I'm so fucking Pissed!

Phew! A week of IMH posting is over~ woah.. so fast. It was as if i just started work. Well, wasn't that bad afterall. Had a great time working with my best bud- Gina. well, just can't wait for the holidays to arrive. Hippi!! Well, no matter what i guess i still have to do my projects.. Booo~~

Hmm, came back from the UK funfair at woodlands. it was fun. accompanied my precious grace to play the games stalls. But i was more thrill on the rides there.. they look scary and crazy. Too bad grace was scared... so we manage to ride on just two not so thrilling ride. It was hell.. becos we were soaked into dirty water with the wet ride.. haha.. come to think of it.. so stupid of us.. we must have look silly up there!! whahaha...

Am thinking of changing my hairstyle yet again.. have this urge to cut short.. but i am afraid i wouldn't be able to accept the new change. Well, perhaps i still need to consider again...

Having terrible backache and headache.. wondering what is happening to me. maybe i am too stress lor.. I need a good massage.. Now i really feel like going abroad to relax.. so envious of Jo.. she gets to travel to Bangkok.. i bet she can get massage and spa for a cheap and good deal.. And i can imagine things there being so affordable that u can buy everything. sobs.. i have to save up... having great urge for shopping.. help me!!! where is my ATM???

Will U BE My Valentine?

woah!! yesterday was V day. What can i say. i was spending half of my day in the IMH. It was dreary because of the orientation. I was half awake and half sleeping thru the whole speech and introduction. Yucks! Nonetheless, it was fun to work with Gina. We talk to patients and listen to them. Kinda fun and scary. Talk about stigma.. i think i do have a little somehow or rather.

Then WE met after long awaiting hours. I just can't imagine how good he looks yesterday. Hair style was great, looks damn yummy! We hugged. Wee~i was on cloud 9. Even though he said he did not want to get me a gift, he DID once again... Hmm... Do u know that last valentine it was our official first date. So yesterday marked a very significant day for us. we talked and laughed like nobody busniess. It was fun. What can i say.. everyone was staring at us.. Or maybe it was the bouquet of flowers that attracted the attention?? He was taking credit man... haha.. saying that he felt so proud that everyone was looking at us.. especially the bouquet. However, he did not buy the flowers. It was a gift from my mum.. but the flowers are really beautiful..

we had pasta for dinner.. it was filling. It was really affordable and delicious. we then take a stroll to the bus stop and headed home. even though, i was tired. i can't help feeling a gush of happiness and love... because of HIM. We parted.. however we seems so inseparable. I can't bear him to leave.. haha... Just wanna say... I love u dear..

Can you imagine me and Gina actually went to tour IMH.. haha.. u may think it is a joke.. but it's not. We actually wne t there to checkout the place. I felt so crazy to be walking in the hot sunny day. The place is so deserted. As if nobody is around. anyway, we manage to time our journey and then we set off to the teens amazing race.

We took a long time to reach Junction 8 but we mange to make it on time. But unfortunately, we are not selected. Boo... =C Haizz, what can i say. they are stupid peeps... Nah.. anyway, we walk walk the junction 8 and Gina got herself sth from Ebase. really looks gd on her.

We headed to Kbox cine to K song.. wah... so fun.. we sang to our hearts content.. what can i say.. it was relaxing. Help me to relieve my stress. hmmm... i guess we dun have much time to sing anyway.,. cos next week is our attachment to IMH.. Really looking forward to it. haha.. because i am also crazy.. yeah!

Hmm.. miss Zz a lot. But he seems to be so busy today. Anyway, he has his life so can't always bother him. I MISS U DEAR!! MAUCKS!!! =P

Very nice rite?? Also got another design but can't find the pic... (~.~)

hmm.. today still in holiday mood.. dun feel like going to school but yet.. i am just back from it. wee~ Anyway, had KFC for lunch.. felt so sinful as i have been munching on fried, spicy and oily food lately.. what can i say? it is the new year that i have to suffer... as u all know that no shop opens on the new year.. and the only stores filled with peeps are the fast food outlet.. Phew! am i glad, the stores are opening soon!

well, was browsing at a watch shop.. Oh man!! i saw something that really caught my eyes.. it was a GUess watch.. In my fav color too.. Gosh!! It is a valentine's day edition- erm.. i think it comes in a package... like with chocolate and heart shaped box.. so cool.. Boo.. too bad i don't have the money... Boo~~ Only can see.. no touch.. argh!!! Let me lay my hands on you and i will be on cloud 9.. Yummy!!

I have been hiding my own feelings to myself.. but who knows??

Who understand how frustrated i am??

How much i miss him yet .. he thinks that i DON'T!

Fuck u... Don't be so self centred. Must i always be the one to show u how i feel??

This week i try to pack my schedule tight so as to keep myself control.. but i guess i can't!

ALL BECAUSE OF HIM!

I can't be bothered anymore!!!

Don't try to empathise... i don't need it!

CRY..

CRy ...

cry...

REally upset.. so fuck off!

Me and wenjie~

Gina and ME!

Okie.. can see i AM TIRED!!

Me lookling so shitty. tired le...

Me , Jo and Jie singing.. wah.. look at Jie he is so Enthu..

Wenjie... dun lildat la.. Jo's singing not so bad la...

wah.. the threesome!

another of Gina's fav...

Gina's FAv!

hehe... Singing together...

Wah..so black... erm.. chatting about their new album

Yeah!! Singing!

blur le...

BAD concert!!

wah.. just finish bathing.. hair still wet.. hmm.. ahhh... felt so good after a warm shower. Well, i was out k -boxing with my best pal- Gina, Jo and wen jie. It was really fun. Never been so happy after a long time. Guess singing really perks me up. We sang from 7pm till 1045pm. Haha.. we had fun taking photo of each other in comical scene. Wenjie is the one who made us laugh like mad. He uses his fake voice to sing the female parts of duet.. Then gina also fake male voice ha... it was hilarious! It's fun to be with close friends. I am sure we will go out some other time. Ha.. mummy already warn me!! Nonetheless, who cares? We "jie meis" goanna have fun ! haha... ok la.. wenjie.. erm... u are our Da Ge!

i am sad.

My cactus is dying.

I am down.

Very down.

Somehow, i develop feelings for my cactus.

I can't bear to throw away a life.

I feel vulnerable all of a sudden.

Will my life be like my cactus?

Sad.
Sad.
Sad.