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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

CLINICaL TEST

Gosh! THis past few days was so terrible.. ever since monday. Why ?? Because it is the stupid clinical test. ARgh!! i cannot believe that so many people didn't make it. Just one simple handrubbing /scrubbing and yet so many failed. Even those who always scored well didn't make it, how about me? I am already so stress up with the theory test that ended today and my damn practical test is this friday.  Everyday, i will received news that someone failed and it just make me worry and even more fearful. HEy, why should i be afriad. i have the GOhonzon with me.. so i should face this test with courage and i believe i will succeed! Clinical test here i come~

Also today i went to QingQing house today for prayer session for her operation. SHe has scoliosis. well the op is to remove the screw that is implant in her spine as the wound just wouldnt't heal. Somehow or rather i manage to chant for nearly an hour which i normally cannot do. Maybe it is the ichinen that make me wanna chant more, for i think the operation must be a success. Well, she can even tell us that she know that she will be okie and that her op will be successful, make me really admire her.
 
Today chat with gina today and the content is:

=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
i was thinkin wat shld i do...u see...we finish class at 12...
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
remedial at 5...
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
hehe...
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
wat shld i do...haiz
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
go K box??
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
hahaha
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha but u gt clinical leh
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
oh ya hor... hahaha
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
forgotten
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha hw can u forget...so important
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
aiyah.. slip out my mind lor
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
dunno what shit la
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha...so cute
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha..its shitty...haha sounds nicer...
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
okie.. so shitty!~
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha...hey have u heard a guy killed himself at bishan this noon...he jumped off the track...
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
ya i heard.. young or old huh??
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
erm 30 plus i think...
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
den i was thinking luckily for u...
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
cuz he died ard the time u set off for lunch today...
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
if u come any later i think u will be in the train that he kill himself
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
whahaahaha
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
so shitty~
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
so funny
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha...wah den u can see bloody scenes..haha
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
cannot imagine.. maybe i will laugh out loud
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
hey u veri bad leh...pple die u still can laugh
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
but its kinda funny leh.. aiyah.. why everybody choose to die at the north south line??
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha...ya lor...like alot cases happen in the ns line...maybe the pple n residents there veri stress lor...haha
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
so choose to dis at ns line
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
whaha.. i think so. or maybe it is the line with red line?? so maybe it is like a sign or sth
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haaha wat sign...? i think most likely its the colour...haha RED,....
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
yah.. thats what i am trying to say..
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha okie...ooh no we r on the wrong frequence....
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
no la.. where got.. whHAHHAHA.. we are mad talking abt this anywae
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha..ya lor...haha
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
so what ya doin??
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
ooh...rottin in front of the com...
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
u? sweet talkin to Zz
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
haha
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
no loh.. writing my blog...
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
he enjoying himself with his friend bday
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
ooh..haha okie..i read it later...hehe
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
ooh..izzit..haha..icic
Clinical Test Here I Come!! I will Suceed~ says:
saw him today... find him gd looking .. whaha.. lovesick me
-=[G].i.n.A=- *And everytime I try to fly, i fall without my wings, I feel so small, I guess i need u baby* says:
ooh dear...u r...........haha


Sunday, July 25, 2004

Well, i have been thinking... what am i going to do after my final year in NYP. To think abt it, i only left 1 more sem and i will be out, graduated. I am scared. very scared. So unsure of what am i suppose to do after my final days in nyp is up. Some times i really admire those who actually set their minds to do what they want. For example, my boyfriend wants to be a nurse, and he studying nursing in nyp.. bonded some more. Sometimes i really feel like bonding myself, maybe i wouldn't have to make anymore decision for at least 3 yrs. I did think of realizing my dreams - to work in the media. in whatever aspect. However, what if i failed? Then do i really have to go to nursing? i know in the first place, nursing was chosen to be my another stepping stone. it wasn't meant to be my final destination. i never ever thought of being a nurse , thats why i never sign any bond. i know that many thinks i am crazy, having 15 points for my 'O's, and give up business for nursing is stupid. but i believe that whatever happened, happens for a reason. Noone can assure u that whatever u study, u will end up working in that area. Hmmm.. so what do i want to become?...

Thursday, July 22, 2004



How to make a April
Ingredients:

1 part mercy

5 parts brilliance

5 parts energy
Method:
Stir together in a glass tumbler with a salted rim. Add lustfulness to taste! Do not overindulge!

My japanese name is 福田 (happy rice field) 歩 Ayumi (walk, deeper meaning: walk your own way).
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April Highway
Mt. Happiness9
Bankruptcity22
Family Farm47
Study Hall113
Bewilderment Avenue240
Please Drive Carefully
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Where are you on the highway of life?

From Go-Quiz.com

ARIES WOMAN 
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. She thinks only good things so she prepares and always makes arrangement for herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed.

If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character.Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with.

She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiacs. Once she determines to do thing, nothing will stop her.

Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty-dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she chooses you, she will need to be proud of you."Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage".

Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love, but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love.

She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always looks cool even when she is not. She likes to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity.

You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan.A Goat always climbs high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot.

 She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again, quietly but sure.If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person, but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

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You're chocolate.  You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life.  Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy.  Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them.  You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly.  It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

Which kind of candy are you?
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MY bf is a chocolate! he is also an idiot!!! hahahahaha i love him!


Sunday, July 18, 2004

it has been a long long time since i came here to jot down my feelings.. well,  it has been hectic ever since the school reopen. i guess i am really tied up with studies and my cca-stagearts. Somehow, i really think my time mangement is getting out of hand. Just feel that everything seems to fall apart.. i am just forcing myself to be strong.. but the fact that i really am going to break down anytime. it just seems to me that no matter how hard i try things doesn't work out as i want them to be.. sometime i really feel like putting down all that heavy burden of responsibility and just relax.. really relax. Do something i really want... like relaxin on my bed without having the thought of waking up early. Crouching up at the sofa with my BF and just watching VCD. However, it can never come true... i am just too BZ to enjoy myself. Having to face the stress of studies and projects.. i still need to take care of things in the club. i am not a very complicated person.  u just NEED to UNDERSTAND me! Well, i hope things will get better, if not i WILL break down soon!!!