Oh man.. time flies.. 3 more days to my expedition.. gosh!! i'm getting excited just the thought of it. Hmm.. however, i get wierd dreams... now and then. Haiz, i just hate it when at night i can't fall asleep.. and have disturb rest. next day, wake up at 9 plus.. argh!! totally pissed off.

Well,backpac is almost finished packing. Just left some small stuff like food and shoes. Wondering should i carry another bag.. but i really want to travel light. haha.. i am throwing every damn thing there... nope! no washing for me!! haha.. so i am sure my bag is goanna be really light. Important thing is my passport and $$.

Dunno what to expect there. . Ambiguity.. like what Mr teh loves to say. Well, met Ms BElinda Chan.. she's really nice and friendly.. motherly i would say. But Teh is still the leader lor.. sianzz... Things are quite settled.. we are staying at a bungalow and there will be packed food.. also transportaton is accessible. things seems to be quite smooth.. crossed my fingers..

I will miss u all... will be back okies... miss moi!!

Well, just finish one week of attachment at Emergeacy dept of AH. It was enriching and i learn somwthing new everyday. However, there are not much life threatening case.. mostly are chest pain, laceration and fractures. Staff there are okie.. however, the culture there is different. things has to be done fast and efficient. no wasting of time standing around. It kinda suits me. But i believe i still prefer peads.

read Gina's blog.. she seems upset and hurt.. hopefully things are better for them.

Saw Sheena's tag.. so sweet of her to visit my blog. hehe~ :) Updated her URL

Dunno why but i feel very 'xin fu' now.. it seems to e that things are finally in place.. and i have time to plan for myself. My relationship is going well. My new found friends are totally cool. Really think we hitted it off.. believe we will be friends for a long time. haha..

Going for photo shots on Sunday.. haha.. kinda excited.. dunno what to expect for my 'transformation'. haha.. dunno what to wear too.. looking forward for it. Will post up the pics when its ready.. Sure u all wanna take a look at it.. Wink*

Recently watch two movies- Shark Tales and The forgotten.. or is it the unfogotten.. whatever it is.. both movies are great!! hehe.. shark tales was really comical and entertaining while the other one was really unepected and suspend. Will catch more movies like the incredibles, the princess dairy, the saw.. woah.. that seems really nice and bloody ...hehe

Hmm.. hoping for a gathering real soon.. with my sec sch friends.. really missed them a lot.. maybe i have to start hor.. if not they may not bother to... hmm.. what shall we do??

mental straining camp

Well, first thing when u think about camp is that u will have losta activity and action. Just last weekend, i went to a camp in school which was to stimulate the feeling that we are in cambodia.. But it was a failure. It was terrible.. Can u imagine that we actually report early in the morning.. and then we had discussion and "debate" for the WHOLE day!! gosh.. it was torturing!! he told us that we were going to an adventure park after that draggy and pathetic session.. we were all excited for the action to take place.. haiz, in the end when we reached, he told us that we had to have trained staff to handle to equipment and we are "force to leave" . Damn, can u imagine e face of everyone.. sulky and pissed i would say. There we are back again to do discussion!! It was mentally tiring and ultimate bordom. in the end, i and my friends just entertain ourself , as we could no longer listen to mr teh. We joked and play a fool.. it was fun!! we talked none stop even when mr teh was talking, i know it maybe rude but trust me, u will fall asleep if u were to listen to his speech. There are some peeps who are the serious type, cannot play a fool.. there are the "pampered ones".. who looks weak... and there are the crazy ones.. which is my group.. I know i could say that it was my friends that this camp seems to reward me something.. We really bond together and know each other better..

On sunday, we went to golden mile to look see.. and tour the army store to get those stuff we need for the expedition. We went bizarre.. talking rubbish and keep laughing and joking.. We entertain ourself like mad.. we had fun!! We try some thai food there. me and junni may get boxer.. hehe.. maybe get one for hubby. We were given so much time, so we had nothing to do.. we saw this old weighing machine and started trying it out.. our group of 5 folk out 20cents each to weigh ourself.. haha.. it was fun.. there is this little msg behind the card and each of us has a different msg. Mine was You have an unusally warm and generous nature and are beloved by all who know you. Quite true.. So cool rite?? haha... we are just to bored.. next, we went down to war memorial to listen to history of spore. haizz.. BORING!!! we nearly slept. Then as usual, we talk among ourselves and the camara man keep filming us talking.. kinda pai seh.. but who is listening anyway.

Then we went back school and had reflection of the past two days. Mr teh ask us to be truthful and then we had to speak whats the truth.. so everyone reflect and said that it was boring, disorganised, mental straining and draggy. it was a failure... nothing like cambodia. we practically had our food all on time 5meals a day and hp to ourself.. how can this be a stimulation of cambodia? Well, not only that.. even for the cambodia trip.. nothing is finalise.. can u imagine.. we dun even know whether we had a place to sleep?? any transportation?? food? blah blah blah.. nothing is planned. i guess all has to depend on ourself.. cannot depend the lecturer to help us.

Just now saw something quite catch my eye.. here it is...

A girl asked a guy if he thought she was pretty, he said...no.
She asked him if he would want to be with her forever....and he said no.
She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry, and once again he replied with a no.
She had heard enough.
As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....
You're not pretty you're beautiful.
I dont want to be with you forever. I NEED to be with you forever.
And I wouldnt cry if you walked away...I'd die...

Also from today onwards.. i will call Zz hubby...hehe... ('-')

Something from Tiffany & Co. that i have eyed on.. It's expensive... wonder when can i get it? (- __ -) 

Hmmm.. come to think of it.. christmas is comin soon... well, wonder will anyone actually get me presents? Anyway, i don't really have much to ask for.. just want everyone around me to be really, really happy... thats all.. Sometimes we just take for granted the people around us and neglect them.. i believe i did some way or rather hurt someone, upset someone, pissed someone off and didn't tell them how much they mean to me... Well, i just wanna tell everyone, not just a X'mas wish but something truly from my heart that i appreciate everyone who ever cross my path and leave foot prints behind.. Thank you from the bottom of my heart... It's coming to the end of the year... so i guess everyone should reflect upon what they had done over the past 12months. Like me, i had an exciting and great year.. full of ups and downs.. thankful for those who stood by me and endured my temper. I met someone great and am deeply in love with him.. though we are completely different. I come to realize that it was what makes me attracted to him. We are different... I became more active in stagearts at the same time, i had step down for the new batch to take over. I found new hobby which is to go ktv with gina. i get to know Gina more and appreciate her concern. I also befriended new friends that widen my social circle once again. I am goin for an expedition soon to cambodia.. hopefully learn something there that makes me a even better April. I just finish exams and hopefully passed every one of them.. Well.. this is just a part 1 of the whole story.. will continue soon.....

... Borin ...

Cannot imagine.. one more day or should i say less than 24 hours and i will finish my exams.. argh!! i can't help but feeling hopeless.. cos i can't concentrate at all.. i just wish that everything will be fine tml.. crossing my fingers and praying hard!! (-__ -")

Well, was really happy that i receive sms from ZZ.. very seldom one leh.. hehe.. still having back pain and shoulder ache making it worst for me to study... neither can i lie down or sit still.. i practically just walk up and down.. like those ancient times when scholars are studying.. hahaha.. but moi is a lazy scholar.. cos till now haven't finish my revision.. hopefully i will pass my exams..

Going back to my books~ whoho...Okie i will leave this to all who read my blog...

Everything depends on what is in our hearts. Heartfelt prayers will definitely be answered. If we decide that something is impossible, then, consistent with our minds thinking so, even possible things will become impossible. On the other hand, if we have the confidence that we can definitely do something, we are one step closer to achieving it.

You are a Queen! Beautiful, Wise, StrongRighteous, Commanding, Humble You are the beautiful and compassionate Queen. You are the epitomy of what every woman should be. You are confident, bold, aggressive, smart, womanly and feminine. You know the right thing to do and do it. You command respect and earn praise. You are moral and loving. In times of trouble, you draw strength from within, and are a source of strength for others.
Which Royalty Are You? Find out! By Nishi.

... Rainy Day...

What a day.. just finish my exams and the rain keeps pouring...just like my feelings...

Sitting in front of com to blog once again.. haven't been blogging lately due to the excessive usage of my net account and also my exams.. well, glad that there is only one more paper to go.. phew~ two more days and hurray!! i will be free!!

Have been feeling sick lately.. irritable and moody.. just like today, i am having terrible abdominal cramps and diarrhoea.. no appetite at all.. feeling lethargic and shitty!! Weather is too gloomy... enhance my terrible feeling now.

Listening to Fish's songs .. again.. haiz, singing about love relationship... WORST! about breaking up!! Talking about relationship, i think my relationship is edgy and rocky once again.. Gosh!! Yes, maybe because i am a useless person that doesn't deserve to be loved.. just like my former relationship... i know that it is my karma. i just have to accept it.. (NO!! April, how can u think that way.. u must challenge it..) I dunno whether i will be able to take it... because i think i have fallen too deep... haizz...i am drown, suffocating, dead... (okie, i am talking rubbish already)

I should be with my books now.. yet i am down here blogging away.. i think i am sure dead.. i dun think i can finish revising my next paper.. which is nursing science.. oh please! what a stupid topic... because i can't see the science in the module... all are interventions and interventions...

Well.. some things i need to achieve during this pathetic 2 weeks of break (that includes one week of my attachment)

1. To pack my messy room and table.
2. To go for my vaccinations and medical check up.
3. To go shopping and hunting supplies for expedition.
4. To take passport photo.
5. To go ktving with my dear Gina.
6. To patch things up with my bf. (most impt!)