Just waiting for time to pass.. so my time for sleeping day will come.. whahaha... okies.. cannot blog for too long.. heehehe gtg chaoz~

Tonight doing night shift.. Using the com in the hospital.. It seems like heaven compare to other shift. Just felt so lucky to have such good staffs with me doing duty. Well, at least i can do whatever i want. Haha.. Lolx. Hmm..

Then my staffs are also watching football with patient.. Cool HUh?? Well, i guess this is night life.. Reports already half finish. Still left the pain score to fill up later.

One more week to go!! Time flies.. Wah.. scary.. mummy stressing me to find work le.. Still not too sure where to go and where to head to.. Chanted to Gohozon for wisdom and courage to find my mission in life. I know Gohozon will lead me to choose a correct path. Whereby i will learnt and benefit from it. :)

Well.. tml i will be doing night duty for 2 days.. kinda fun sia.. never done night shift b4.. heard from JEn that it's fun and i bet she must be enjoying those ghost stories.. haha loLx.

Hmm... life has been great. I have been enjoying every single day of my life.. Life hasn't been better.. :)

I miss Gina and Jo.. hee... *MISS YA*

hmm... another day pass.. exam result release.. happy that i passed all. but wasnt that satisfied with my grades..but whatever it is.. i have fulfilled one wish.. so happy.. hee :)

I am so tired.. keep falling asleep while travelling to and fro places.. haha.. get to meet up with ged.. so happy.. one yr one time only.. so i am glad to see him.. chatted while dining at sakae. We had a great conversation. As usual.. talking about our future and stuff.. hmm..

Well.. received a lot of late greetings today.. but nonetheless.. thanks for remembering.. really happy...

Left my PRCP to conquer... too bad lah.. tml is afternoon shift if not can work in the night. Okeis.. nothing much le la.. so me sHoo..

HAven't been updating for a long time.. So it is time to update what happen this few days.. but since its kinda late.. i have uploaded the photo for all to view what had been going on. Hmm.. i am so so happy that so many peeps of mine actually remembered my bday.. Like Gerald, johnson, farhana, Elson, Wen jie, Xiu Yun, Wanyu, Lawrence, Li Fang, Hui Qing, Adeline, Jennifer, ZZ, Kai ming, Sam, Chee Meng, Grace, Sheena, Jacqueline, Yee fun, Ee lyn, Shawn, Seth, Jane, Gina, Jo and Wee tien.. I think thats abt it.. Hmm.. i dunno whether i forget anyone.. Sorry if ur name is not mention.. but MAny THANKS TO ALL... U All have brighten my day!! =D

I guess time flies.. soon my bday will be over and me will be 20.. Sobs.. But i treat this as a new beginning. A great start to my next chapter of my life..

Well, i have received presents from quite a few peeps.. Some from my wishlist, some not. however, it is not the gift that is important.. it is the friendship we shared. I am happy no matter what u all gave.. So thanks again!

Kai Ming had written me a poem... entitle- April

April

The fourth month of the year
brings such delight
Lovingly Warm
My heart beats faster
the
vivacious
heat

Teh clouds kiss the
stubble- plains with rosy hue
The sun lit silence
admires
The light wind caresses the mountain
Flowers flutter and dance
in the breeze
Nature gives a soft look
as the sea of euphoris
celebrates
her joyous presence

In deep thoughts:
Wht is April so beautiful?
And not March
or January
nor August

How can the year
ever be complete
without
April

What is it of
April
that men gets
so crazy about?

Simply magical
Out of this world
A fairytale
moment
I will never
forget

The fourth month of the year is such a delight
Lovingly warm
My heart beats faster
Because of
April

Nice?? Well.. it doesn't matter what u think.. as long as i am very touched that someone actually wrote me a poem... thanks kai ming..

Also thanks Zz for being the first to give me the big cookie and a surprise meet up with yummy chocolate cake from coffee bean.. it is so sweet of u...

Thanks Jen for spoiling me with gifts and ur snail mail card.. well nice hand writing.. so neat... whahaha..

Kisses and huggies for Gina and Jo for spending crazy hours taking photo at essential brew.. and nice catching up with u all..

Thanks all for all the bday wishes and SMS... I am really happy today... the happiest day for the month..

Pretty??? Of cos lah...

Up close and personal...

The silly threesome~

Me n Gina... Sister forever.

Me and Jo at the Essential BRew

The NYPSD Grp photo - 5th training.

Cake cutting ceremony..

The April babies..

Adeline and Me durinf YCF training..

The esplanade~

me and grace after the show- fullerton behind

Me cant wait to eat .. munchie..

where is my ketchup??

hmm.. food is here.. yeah

where is my food??

Nice old vintage sound player...

Grace's drink- Sophia

This was our shared sandwich. The bomber's club sandwich.. taste great!

Grace and moi went to Billy Bombers for dinner.

the foursome of Q n M dental enjoying ourselves in party world

Moi and GY.. the 'zhu jiao' for the day

mr, vanessa and pei yuan

My vegetarian bday cake..

Caught this on sat with Grace.. fantastic show.. hilarious..

Flower.. no.. it's smiling daisy..

A poetry book by dear KM

Jen and me.. haha

Baby cookie..

first gift - my big cookie...

Okie... back from work. Guess i am just too tired. No mood at all.. or maybe purely PMS.

Alright.. make things clear with Jen.. Understand what she wants.. respected her decision. Will follow her needs.

I am tired.. really tired.. i need a rest.

Dunno why am i feeling so freaking out.

Fear? Perhaps.

Confusion? Not really.

Somehow, it affected me. I dunno what am i feeling... just unease.

Shit, i am stressed up.

AgAin..

What to do?

Help!

I MISS SH...

ALWAYS MISS HER...

SHE HAS BEEN PART OF MY LIFE EVER SINCE THE DAY WE MET ... AND ALWAYS WILL BE.

I WILL FOLLOW UR DECISIONS. WHATEVER IT MAY BE.

take care my dear...

Well.. what will u do when u are stuck in a situation?? Will u hit and go or run and hide? Well, i will assess the situation and probably just hit and go... but for this case i can't. I need to face the music.. i have to conquer the obstacle... yet i am so weak to do so.. Or should i say i am in such delimma that i wouldnt know what to do is the best.

I just want to be happy... can u grant me that simple wish of mine??

If facing such obstacle will cause me pain, i rather avoid at all cause. I have just climb out of the darkest pit.. and saw the glimpse of daylight.. i dun wish to be thrown back down to the horrible state again.

Give me time...

Okies... lets dun get emo as much as possble..

Well, i had such nightmares.. or bad dreams for 2 consecutive nights. It just freak me out. Common' if u wanna me to believe it is just conincidental or just purely bad luck... I betcha wrong man.. cos' i believe it is telling me something.. something that spell danger.. hmmm.. maybe it is due to my poor sleeping?? argh!! whatever it is... i hope tonight will have a gd night rest.

Hmm... met Grace today... got the jeans from her.. also the tix for boeing boeing.. YEsh!! i am going to watch a theatre play again.. I mean i am so deprive from watching shows nowadays becos i am so damn broke. If i were to be working full time then i guess i should be able to spent more on theatre production. I would really like to catch more local production and also musical plays... just no $$.. but Grace decided to pay my tix price as my bday gift.. so i am so happy... hEHhe... glad that she is willing to help me out.

Met Sh after work.. haha.. met her and went to eat ice cream at HD. Well, i am such a sweet toothed... eat very thingy that is so sweet. Guess din really know much abt SH.. So SH i am sorry okie.. next time no nuts... HEhe lolz... SH claim i smelled nice.. haha.. lucky i don't stink.. phew!... was glad to meet SH after last sunday. Walked me home and chatted quite abit.. was a nice feeling~

Hmm.. weekend tml yet no plans.. argh!! wtf.. never mind tml have to look for kakis le.. if not tml stayed at home lor.. Booo....still thinking what i can do when i am so broke.. haha..

Alrite.. some friend actually ask me what i want to do for bday.. but the fact that my schedule is to be the same as my Staff nurse make things really difficult for me to plan ahead.. so sorry guys .. will let u all know asap.!!

Birthday list again...
saw the skirt on my blog>? Hmm.. I want that!! Get it?? haha..

Song of the day...

Artist: Akon
Album: Trouble
Title: Lonely

Lonely im so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely, im mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my owwnnn
Im so lonely,

Yo this one here goes out to all my playas out there ya kno got to have one good girl whose always been there like yaKno took all the bullshit then one day she cant take it no more and decides to leave

I woke up in the middle of the night and I noticed my girl wasn't by my side, coulda sworn I was dreamin, for her I wasFeenin, so I hadda take a little ride, back tracking ova these few years, tryna figure out wat I do to make it go bad, cuzEver since my girl left me, my whole life came crashin

Im so lonely (so lonely),
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Cant belive I hadda girl like you and I just let you walk right outta my life, after all I put u thru u still stuckAround and stayed by my side, what really hurt me is I broke ur heart, baby you were a good girl and I had no right, IReally wanna make things right, cuz without u in my life girl

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody to call my own)
To call my own (to call my own) girl
Im so lonely (so lonely)

Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girl

Been all about the world ain't neva met a girl that can take the things that you been throughNever thought the day would come where you would get up and run and I would be out chasing uCuz aint nowhere in the globe id rather be, aint noone in the globe id rather see then the girl of my dreams that made meBe so happy but now so lonely

So lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girrll

Never thought that id be alone, I didnt hope you'd be gone this long, I jus want u to call my phone, so stop playing girl andCome on home (come on home), baby girl I didn't mean to shout, I want me and you to work it out, I never wished Id everHurt my baby, and its drivin me crazy cuz...

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own)

Im so lonely (so lonely)
Im mr. Lonely (mr. Lonely)
I have nobody (I have nobody)
To call my own (to call my own) girll

Lonely,
so lonelySo lonely, (so lonely),
Mr. Lonely, so lonely
So lonely, so lonely, (so lonely), Mr. Lonely

Nice?? Sweet rite...from Abercrombie and Fitch. I want this!!!! But only can find in auction.. No more in store. Boo...

Song of the day.... Goin' crazy!

Artist: Natalie
Title: Goin' Crazy

[VERSE 1:]Ever since the day you went away and left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)
Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
Its nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you baby

[VERSE 2:]Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you its been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Every time we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deep for you crazy over for you
I`m calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true, no fronting
Its you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

[Bridge]I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you baby

Hmm.. today is some day special but yet.. also not that special anymore. BEcos it had been a history.

Okie.. LEts not get emotional and update a little.

Well, today morning shift was bz as usual. Took charge of 3 cases.. Went only for 1 break. Aiyah.. guess i am just too hardworking.. haha :lolz. I am kinda tired actually but got to work in the dental clinic. So din get to rest.. but got to chat with CM. Really glad to hear from him. Anyway, he's so sweet to his ex. Hopefully things turn well for both of them~

I am so glad that Dr Ng let us off early.. So i could get to buy some stuff b4 any shop closes.. haha... Bought snacks to munch on.. hahaha... so hungry recently.... probably becos of all the walking i have done in the ward. Hmm.. legs getting muscular.. haha.. prettier leh..

So shitty.. i keep on biting on my lips. On 3 days in a row.. At the SAME place again n over again..Argh!!
I hate to say this but.. WTF.... argh!!!!

Nana... What happen dear.. please dun ever think that no one is there for u.. cos i am here for u.. If there is anything.. dun hesitate to look for me.. cos i will give u as much comfort u gave me when i was down. Dun hide everything to yourself.. it is not easy.. and someone is here to share the burden with u...

Chill out with T. Kinda enjoyed.. actually enjoyed.

He is someone who can chat with.. A good conversationer.

Chatting with SH.. sounded upset and moody..

trying to cheer SH up!!

To SH: Well, I am always here for U...No worries!!! :) Loving You!

Okie.. quick update... My flu has become 90% better.. No more sneezing and tissue stuck on my nose.. haha... Lolz. Then, thanks to those who prayed and cared for me.. so touched.~

Me today so bz with work that i only take one break. Ate only bread and grapes. ahha.. what a combi~ Then work and work.. like mad.. in fact i think i am like one of the staff nurse.. always writing and making changes in the documents. Wah.. can't imagine myself in as a SRN.

Then later chilling With T. Well, i dun really remember how he looks like.. gosh.. wonder how he look like. Hmm... Aiyah.. repetition.. ZzzzZZz

Song on my mind: Lonely.

Okie... I am becoming obsessed with blogging..

I can't stop..

Hmm.. waiting for SH. Wondering will SH call.

Haizz... Still flu-ey..

Ate green bean soup. Not too bad mummY

Music today: Obsession~

Okie... I have been pestered for what i want for bday.. hahaha... (like real~)
So I shall reveal what i have been craving for in my mind~ Whahaha...

Erm... let's start!!

1. A new mobile phone. - This is some thing that i really need especially when my phone is koh yat.
2. A new mp3 player. Cos i gotta return what's not mine to my mummy~ Boo...
3. A fcuk tee. My fav brand among all the brands. Size Xs/S Please...
4. An own compose poetry just for me.. Hmm... i wonder who will really do that. Copy from book also can lah.
5. Many many birthday cards!! So i can see who remembers my bday..whahaha...
6. A new wallet. No need too expensive one.. got $$ inside can le.. heehee
7. Something from Tiffany & Co. - My dream jewellery store. :)
8. A great novel.. not horror hor...
9. World peace # I am not Miss Universe.. but i do hope there are less suffering around the world.
10. A handsome, suave, tall BF... wah... as if such exist... hahaha...

Okie.. so hurry hurry... shoO.. Go get my gifts!!.. whahaha...

Okie... lets update.. I am So SICK!! I mean i have this terrible flu that so pissed me off. I keep on sneezing especially when today's weather is so damn cold. I am like shivering all over during duty. But thou the day is gloomy and my illness getting worst, my mood is especially good. As usual, i have friends who comfort and care for me thru sms or phone. So sweet of them. Even one came over to visit me.. WinkZ..( U should know who u are.)

Somehow, i am really glad that i am out of my relationship. Not that i have someone new but i have come to notice little things in life that means so much.. Like having good weather and good health. Friends who are always there supporting u. I mean what can i ask for.. i am really contented. This feeling is just like when i just came back from cambodia. I come to treasure little things in life now.. Looking back from my relationship, it was silly of me to keep finding faults and unreasonable quarrels. However, they are not so impt anymore ... it is the great memories that will be kept in my heart.

Today's entry is dedicated to HIM.

I went to see his friendster account and wat did i see.. My testimonial for him.. That was so long ago.. but it brings back beautiful memories of how i get to meet him. We are so different yet against all odds, we falled in love. It was unexpected becos we din like each other in the first place. We were so 'coincidentally' placed together in the same group becos of our elective. Thats how we met and come to know of each others' presences. We had many ups and downs, We break and patch. But we still lasted almost 1 yr. A year maybe short but the time and effort spent was a great deal. He wasn't the sweet talk type neither was he sentimental. But he has been very supportive in whatever i do. he given me his trust whole heartedly. TRUST-that was what keep us going. Even though, we are not together now.. maybe he hates me.. or maybe he already have someone new.. he will be kept in my heart. Thanks for everything u have given me especially the good times we had. Okok.. i am not going to be emo.. which i am not. Cos i have so many peeps out there waiting for me... just kidding.. me crapping again. *WinkZ*

To SH: Let nature take its course... we shall see... :)

wah.. see so popular... whahaha... cheeze~

Ed, Moi and Noreis~

Me and Sheena!!

The threesome and an extra!~

serene, moi and Elson!!

Me and Anselm... looks like couple?

Me and Amy after production

Well, yesterday performance by my juniors were great. They have improved tremendously. I mean i am so proud of them. They have grown a lot~ hmmm... after show the alumni's went to ang mo kio S11 for supper. I was so damn hungry so i order this extra big plate of chicken chop.. Woah.. i am so surprise that i have such a good appetite. After the break up, i have not much appetite. In fact, i lost 2kg. So, now i strive back for my deprivation the past few weeks. Me had great appetite now. hahaha... okok.. back to topic. so the alumni had supper and chatted. It was like massive gathering and updating of each other. It was so fun. I enjoyed chatting with my best threesome, elson and jon. Also update with Vic and the rest. Time flies when u are enjoying. So by the time we finish our supper it was already approaching 11. So Me and JJ left for the last train. Chatted abt our relationship probs.

Today went to SYC for exam daimukukai. Even though i finish exam already but just feel like updating with the rest and it is also good to chant abundance of daimuku. There will always be many obstacles along the way.. so it will always be good to be prepared. haha.. Met gina up for ktv session. It's like so long never get to see her, She is still as pretty and early as always.. haha.. that means i am late again. I enjoyed myself singing again. Its so long i have been to K box. So we have dinner there cos we sign up K dinner. N i had chicken chop again for dinner.. haha.. i am such a chicken lover.. wonder is it becos it is the rooster year?

So after singing, i was already exhausted and my voice has turn from sexy to hoarse man.. haha ..lolx. Then my F... phone went out on me again. It turned into whirlpool mode le.. haizz.. i guess i have to send it for repair. Gosh. i wonder when can i have a proper good phone... or will anyone get a new phone for me for bday??

Hmm.. it strike me that my bday is coming.. OMG!! hmm.. what should i wish for?? Well, i dun really need anything now. Even though $$ will be the best gift. hahaa.. just kidding..lolx What should i do for bday?? hmm... any suggestion??

Well, i am back from my work.. Hahaha.. so happy becos it is the end of one week of attachment. Yeahz!! haha.. u cannot believe how happy i am. haha..my mood escalate as time pass by. It was like okie.. left 1 more hour.. 30 more mins.. Then Woah!! Its 3pm!!... haha...

Hmm.. waiting for time to pass so i will be going down to school for Stagearts drama. Hope it will be a good show.. so long i haven been to the club.. was so bz with my own school work , exam and attachment. I Miss everyone man.. Huggies~ I really miss those time when I am always running around.. bz with my drama and studies. It was so enjoyable.. i make many good friends in the club and i really cherish the times we had whenever there is a gathering.** MIss YoU ALL...**

Recently, there is this special someone who i have been contacting almost everyday.. Its like we cannot stop talking to each other.. I really appreciate SH a lot.. i mean SH has been really sweet and stand by me thru my toughest period. However, i dunno what my feelings are telling me. Its like i am so excited everytime SH sms me.My heart skip a beat whenever i talk to SH. I am very surprise about my reaction.. I wonder am i falling in love again?