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Well.. my first week of attachment have finally ended.. phew! tired and wore out.. i am so happy it is the weekend. however, soon monday will come.. and i have to start all over again. so sick of stupid smelly shoe. it just stink no matter what deoderant powder or socks i wear. at least it is not killing my feet like the last pair. Well, get to learn quite a few new things and PR with the patient has becoming better. There is this patient who probably has a little dementia and at times he just keep talking nonsense.. wetting his pants without knowing it. And he demands to go watch tv which the staff or the students has to push him to and fro from the bed to the tv room. he is so troublsome at times that no one bothers to talk to him or listen to his commands. When he is tired of calling the nurses, he will attempt to climb out of the bed. He can already keep me bz for the whole shift. Well, just one more week and byebye to ward 13..

So tired.. third day of attachment, should be in bed now. but was itchy to write an entry. Attachment at Ah has been fun and staff there, are all friendly and willing to teach. Guide my juniors but wasnt too pleased at some of them. too arrogant and over confident. Hopefully they will listen to some advise and learn from their mistake.

Things between ZZ and me still didnt work out quite right. We still have lotsa trust to build and we have distanced a little. He wants to be alone so i guess i shouldnt bother him this period of time. Hopefully things will turn out better for both of us.. i think i need a break too. I was puzzled on one issue he told me abt the friendster , me putting single, i dun understand why he is upset over that. He told me that he actually found out from his friend, however i found him in my waiting list. can u believe it. i dunno whether he actually sign up a account just to check on me or what.. and the strange thing is that how can i put him in my waiting list when i didnt add him at all. I am confused... Why didnt he tell me that he actually sign up a account? Is it because he cant trust me? There are like so many ?? in my head. I will just keep this to myself , i'm not going to bring this up to him. i dun wan another quarrel.. because i believe in what he says. i dun wanna cast doubt on him too as he does on me.

Actually, i'm quite stress with the attachment, stageARTS and my relationship. i know i can just go MIA and heck care all this stuff but since i am determine to do my best, i know i should not give up just like that. i believe when there is a will, there is a way. After what MIscha told me, i know what i should do, to be responsible and do my duty as a VP. It is never too late to try to mend the cracks in the relationship when people give u the chance. Just like my relationship, when ZZ gave me another chance i told myself, this time round i must work hard and let him trust me all over again. No point looking back at the past. what is impt is that we learnt from past mistake, try not to commit the same disaster. MAybe this break would heals our cracks and strengthen each other's love for one another.

This sat was suppose to have a celebration for Gina for her bday. But due to my stageARTS , i cant make it for the suntan thingy so we have to settle for a shopping trip.. but i was kinda disappointed and sorry for the late arrangement. Told Jo that maybe after that can go club.. since we never ever go club b4. But still not confirm, we are both very excited about it. Hopefully we could make it this sat. If not maybe the next weekend or what la.. ( dreamy )

So tired.. third day of attachment, should be in bed now. but was itchy to write an entry. Attachment at Ah has been fun and staff there, are all friendly and willing to teach. Guide my juniors but wasnt too pleased at some of them. too arrogant and over confident. Hopefully they will listen to some advise and learn from their mistake.

Things between ZZ and me still didnt work out quite right. We still have lotsa trust to build and we have distanced a little. He wants to be alone so i guess i shouldnt bother him this period of time. Hopefully things will turn out better for both of us.. i think i need a break too. I was puzzled on one issue he told me abt the friendster , me putting single, i dun understand why he is upset over that. He told me that he actually found out from his friend, however i found him in my waiting list. can u believe it. i dunno whether he actually sign up a account just to check on me or what.. and the strange thing is that how can i put him in my waiting list when i didnt add him at all. I am confused... Why didnt he tell me that he actually sign up a account? Is it because he cant trust me? There are like so many ?? in my head. I will just keep this to myself , i'm not going to bring this up to him. i dun wan another quarrel.. because i believe in what he says. i dun wanna cast doubt on him too as he does on me.

Actually, i'm quite stress with the attachment, stageARTS and my relationship. i know i can just go MIA and heck care all this stuff but since i am determine to do my best, i know i should not give up just like that. i believe when there is a will, there is a way. After what MIscha told me, i know what i should do, to be responsible and do my duty as a VP. It is never too late to try to mend the cracks in the relationship when people give u the chance. Just like my relationship, when ZZ gave me another chance i told myself, this time round i must work hard and let him trust me all over again. No point looking back at the past. what is impt is that we learnt from past mistake, try not to commit the same disaster. MAybe this break would heals our cracks and strengthen each other's love for one another.

This sat was suppose to have a celebration for Gina for her bday. But due to my stageARTS , i cant make it for the suntan thingy so we have to settle for a shopping trip.. but i was kinda disappointed and sorry for the late arrangement. Told Jo that maybe after that can go club.. since we never ever go club b4. But still not confirm, we are both very excited about it. Hopefully we could make it this sat. If not maybe the next weekend or what la.. ( dreamy )

well.. thanks to all who have supporting me all these while when i am at my darkest moment esp Kel for his advise, his scolding. Gina for her encouragement. ZZ for his care and huggies when i needed it most.
Well.. just for Kel.. i am not avoiding the issue anymore , i have made up my mind and put my heart in believing it will work.I dont want to avoid the issue anymore, i know i am not myself when i hide myself and lose my confidence. So gone are my indecisiveness.. here come the confident and determine April. Btw, i am not angry with u.. if u think i am.. dont worry.. i am fine le.. hehe :)
I want to say that i have been neglecting a lot of responsibilities and i am so sorry to all who has been disappointed with me..From now on, i will work hard. Proof to everyone that i can be responsible for myself and others.

Well, things between me and ZZ is getting from bad to worst. We seems to be distanced from each other.. no phone calls.. only a handful of sms. i dunno what i can do.. it is driving me nuts.. why must i get into this type of confuse state again. Why cant i be happy with my life. i think i am just a bitch.. i feel like one.. even think like one. i just cant put my feelings into words.. it is just too complexed.. Maybe at the first place i shouldn't have started this relationship. Now it just make me feel hopeless in everything i do.. I knew i wasn't ready, yet i still venture out.. thinking i will be able to conquer it all.. but i was wrong.. BIG time. I know ZZ loves me.. Jie loves me.. why must i be in this situation? is this the so called "test" that everyone have to go thru? I dun understand myself either.. it is like me stick in between a sandwich and suffocate and cant breathe properly. Why can't i be decisive a little so as to end all this misery. However, i just cant seem to let go.. Arrrgh... it is so maddening.. I am so fed up with myself..

Well.. things are better between Z and me.. we patch up.. however i wasn't very happy.. It ain't the same anymore , if u know what i mean.. well i feel that it is almost that i am desperate to have a bf.. not really loving him at all.. what should i do.. wait and see or should i really give up?

The worst day of my life...

Today.. i broke the heart of my dear.. i hurt my ex again.. why? why am i so horrible? ZZ broke of with me.. i am terribly upset. maybe after all that quarrel ,he is fed up too.. no one desereve to be treated that way.. i am so evil, heartless .. whatever vicious word.. can be use to describe me. i find myself so hopeless.. i feel like dying.. knowing that i dont have the courage to jump down .. or commit suicide torture me inside out. my heart is tore into million pieces.. where no glue can ever repair..sorry.. VERY SORRY for being such a terrible gf.

Confession of a teenage drama Queen

Cuaght this show yesterday with Gina.. it has been a long time since we last meet. Well, her hair is longer now.. still as pretty as always.. hehe. Basically the show is a comedy with CHIJ girls filling up the whole theatre. Hmm.. Lola the girl was such a drama queen that she lied about almost everything and practically denying the truth till the cat was let of the bag. When she promise her best friend ellen that she no longer lie, she confess her wrong doing which ended her with misery. She felt defeated that when she says the truth no one believe her. Anyway, the story still end with a happy ending with her acting the role she wanted and it was a great success. of cos, she got herself a bf.. and able to revealed the truth about able to see Sir arthur the band she loves and idolised.. overall.. i rate it 3 out of 5 popcorn! hey.. go watch if u have the money to spare.. (^_^)