Haha... it's the beginning of a new month again.. woah!! Finally i can online again.. Well, for some who donno i am using this PATHETIC broadband that is jetpack.. Damn.. i am stuck with 300mb. As you all should know.. I have Exceeded.. that's why i have to control my itchy hands from the com.. Till the new month.. AhhhhH.. At last.. I am here to blog again.. YohoO!! =)

Hmm.. well i have started working at Mount Elizabeth in a specialised clinic.. Work has been tough.. but i am still survioring. I just received a cheque not long and it's a great feeling getting your first pay cheque as a perm staff. Woah.. even though it was a small sum of $$ I am still grinning like mad woman.. cos at last i am not broke.. Whahaha... lolx... Since my work place is at orchard.. U know how tempting the Great Spore Sale is?? Argh.. It's like everywhere u go.. there are shop on sales, discount and offer.. Wow... Jsut can't wait to spend some money.. Hehehehe.... Who wanna go shopping???

I also recieved my official transcript which means i can get my nursing license soon.. woah.. then my pay will increase too... Yeah!!! Can't wait.. HEhehe....

Today, one of my staff is leaving... hmm.. she actually bought us rocher chocolate.. but we din get her anything =x hmm.. well hope that she will do well in her Uni and all the best for her future ;D

Wondering whether i will get to watch Madagascar and monster-in-law?? Hmm.. nvm.. just wait and see.. who will ask me to watch...

Bb bought me a zen micro.. really really touched.. *THAnk You So mUchie!!!* Now i get to enjoy my fav music on the way to work and play.. really happy.. hehe... =) Grooving With the musiZ...

Me and my mini fridge.. won at the D n D.. wonder how to deal with it?? Anyone wan?? heex

Me and PEi Yuan-Future dentist.. hee~ Congrats!!

Q n M Annual D & D.. Tiong BAhru branch staff.. Wee..~.~ (Who dress the worst.. ?? hhaha lolx)

Me & Frank~

GinA & ShawN~

NIce nice.. but too bad.. a little small..

Huge SentoSa! We have conquered~

The girls... sexy YEah??

Dearie sitting.. sweet huh??

Me posing with tree.. whaha lolx

Another PIc of me and dearie.. CheezEs~~

Me & Jo~

Me & Dearie~

^mE & yULia^

*Moi & Ade*

My best buddieS~

Group pic at sentosa .. Wee~

The chicks...

The hunks...

woah.. was surprised to see so many tags again.. Woah.. SObs.. really Touched. *waVes and kiSses* Thanks all!!

Well.. started work at Mount E. Really tiring my best to cope with the work scope.. But it is really really hectic. Every night cum home feeling so shagged. I just can't seems to adapt. Kinda miss ward life. Gosh!! But i guess it is all up to adaptation rite??

Met Dearie for luch today. As usual she looks really great. I miss wearing JEans.. Argh!! I can't stand wearing office wear. Just sucks. I wonder when can i dress casually again. Hmm..

Meeting JEn jEn tml for lunch. I guess it is the only motivation to push me looking forward to work. Once my kakis start work. i think i will be really lonely. Not that peeps there in the clinic not nice.. but i guess colleague and friends are a Huge diff. I really wonder for long can i stand working there?? hmmm.. Everyday just seeing those rich people coming in to waste money is really stupid.. haha.. but what to do.. they are rich what.. lolx

Well.. just last monday.. went to sentosa with one whole lot of peeps.. 10 of them actually.. it was fun. I din thought it will be so successful thou.. haha.. but i was really glad everyone seems to know some new friends mhere and there. hehe.. Really my first time wearing bikini.. was looking forward for a tan.. but as usual, I am not even a little darker.. no need to say tan.. haizz.. another failure man.. have to try again lor.. well.. pics time again!!! Enjoys...

The Paragon Gang~ aLICe, oLIViA, mOi, fLo AND venEssA.. aLL Sweet anD PrinceSsy

mE & My DarLin GinA~

mE & jEn jEn.

Moi!! In the angel outfit~ Cute?? =p

Well.. HAve A blast Of Fun and MAgical Journey today!! It was awesome!! I enjoyed myself every second even though my legs were tired.. Face was oily and sticky.. With the sun and rain.. We raise fund for Anna Sui and Make A Wish Foundation.. it was a huge success.. I was really glad to meet so many new people and friends. Thanks to All those buddies who came down.. Thanks for All ur support. So touched.. (^_^')

I have to say... i am much better now.. so u all can stop worrying for me. I am still as string as ever.. Nothing can puts me down. Heee... Thanks darling for all ur support and love.. U have been a great pal.. i really dun wish u to be unhappy so i decided not to be that upset anymore. u should know who u are.. :)

After the Anna Sui thingy..Went to Essential Brew With Z. Great to be there once again. Try the Cajun Dory. Not too bad.. Even Z's BBQ Chicken taste great.. Maybe i was just hungry. HEe LOlx. Great ambience and we have a great time chit chatting and crapping and laughing at each other silliness. It just remind me of the past when we always 'Suan' each other and tell cold jokes... maybe just me la.. haha lol.. I always enjoy great conversation.. It just somehow makes me feel that it is very impt to have good conversation between 2 individuals.. thats how ideas and feelings can be communicate to the other party.

Hmm.. Well, i was surprised still many out there read my blog.. and recieved many response for me to keep on going.. Well, i am still deciding.. But now.. just let me update my photos for today's event. = )

Okie... me in bad mood.. Only JEn knows why.. maybe most of u all knows why.. Because who else can make me upset and angry other than him.

Well, it has been so long long time since i last came here to let off some steam..

Maybe I will never be able to accept the fact that She will always be there.. And He will always be her friend.

Maybe i shouldn't give a damn to HIm anymore.. It just hurts when he can't be bothered to understand the insecurity i am feeling. Why should i put an effort to refuse people who like me and hurt them?? I dun see myself taking photo with them leaving in my HP?? What's the point?? IS it really necessary??

I think i cannot afford to trust another guy to make me go into relationship.. When i try to put in the first step.. things ALWAYS happen... Noone can understand how difficult life can be when u try but the nest time u know is u have fallen in deep shit.

Fuck You..

Just leave me alone...

I want to be loved but not in this way...

If u love me.. please try to understand. If not.. just fuck off.. I dun need u to upset my life.. I know i can live without u. So what if i make an impact of ur life?? U did too.. by breaking my heart many times.. Do u wan to end up like CM and YL?? MAybe then u will truly understand the importance of that special someone giving u another chance again. Do u really know ur mistake and trying to do ur best?? HAve u try to make to adjustment?? Have u tried to give me the reassurance??

YEs, i may not be physically attractive. I may not be above average. I DUN have big boobs. But i have my personality and character. Yesh.. i am emotional and childish at times. I dun give in due to my stubborness. I sometimes say things too harsh.. I am not good?? Then find someone else. Maybe someone else can satisfy ur needs and demands. Sorry i can't.

I may close my blog soon.. cos i think no one bothers to read anymore.. And i dun think i can blog regularly. Well, for those who wants me to stay do let me know.. i will decide by the numbers.

IT has been quite sometime since i last blog.. I am here to share good news about my job offer at Mount E. The job was introduce by Gina and it is a job as a Staff Nurse. The snr decided to offer me the job while i took one day of consideration... I fibnally accepted the offer as i know that i need a job to survived. I am really very broke.. I need to thank Gina for giving me the lobang. :) Will treat ya when i get my pay.

Well, saw Gina's blog and it seems that she has finally gotten a job too.. I am glad for her. Wanted to chat with her, yet it is kinda late so decided not to. I guess she will be bz once she start work. So i guess it will be difficult to catch up. Nonetheless, i wish her all the best for her new job.. Congrats! :)

Met up with the usual gang.. have lotsa gossip and bitching to do as usual. Great to know everyone is having a hell of fun in their life. Min and Elson is goin NS soon.. Will miss them both. Jon going to Brunei real soon.. but still waiting lah.. ha.. NEw guy - Bryant joined us but somehow find that we left him out. Well, i guess it was never easy to blend in. Just try... ;) As usual Elson fan fei ji on Terence. So i guess Terence is with the rest for clubbing. what else is new, Elson always without doubt put his "racket joke" on Me.. while the rest get entertain. Ha.. well, i guess the rest are so bored by the joke. Got to know that Elson got drunk with just two cup of tiquila with 7Up. haha.. Well, i know ya secret.. Wo hai mei you shuo wan ..

Really tired.. Decided to sleep le.. tml early morning has to go to Damai sec.

Today's entry is for my dearest Gina,

Well, it has been a long time since we last chilled or talk on the phone. I really miss the times when we use to hang out every single day after school. BE it shopping or Ktv together. U know it has been awhile since we did that. I know we both are busy with life.. however, like i said.. no matter what u will always be in my mind and heart. I may not be there physically but i will be ur moral support. Don't ever feel that u are not important to me.. especially our friendship. I will pray for ur mum and hope everything will be fine. I do hope we can meet up together for a chilling session or even ktv. Just the two of us... Let's arrange sth? winkZ~

U are the only place who are willing to take me now.. I am so damn despair.,.. who will be here for me?? I am so weak.. weak till i can no longer stand myself.. I hate myself.. I hate everybody.. I hate my life..

Why.. Why can't i be happy?

Why..

Why is it that things have to welled up against me while happiness are always short term.

Do i have to degress my life to that of one month ago??

WHY????

I am filled with frustration and tears... Tell me who will be here for me?? Who will??

Hmm.. my feet is aching from all that walking in the ward.. I am really glad that my PRCP is coming to an end. Wow.. can't imagine, My 3 years of poly life is ending real soon.

In high spirit all day even though i was tired. Dunno why but life has been really good for me.. And i know it is the blessing of all the boddhisatvas that protect me. I guess it's time to find job as my mum said that i have to work for my own living. Sad but thats the truth la.. HAizx...

Many asked me to join AH as a staff nurse.. But i think likewise.. Told my mum my decision and she didn't force.. Boy am i glad..

I can't wait to meet Gina on friday to chit chat and gossip to update each other what have been happening recently.. hee MIss ya GINA!!!